FIRST THINGS FIRST: I’ve taken a few weeks off. It was intentional. My wife, Amanda, and I went out of town for a few days to spend some time together, and then we’ve been really really busy doing all the “get ready for the baby that’s coming soon” stuff that needs to done prior to the arrival of a little one.
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Just the other day Amanda leaned over to me and said: “I think she’s coming soon.”
There’s a lot of emotion crammed in that word: “soon.”
There’s a hint of anxiety in that word. My wife has been really focused on preparing the nursery. The last two or three weeks have been spent getting the furniture in place, washing little clothes, and getting stuff in the right place.
There’s quite a bit of excitement hidden in that word, too. We haven’t seen an image of the little girl since February, and she’s grown quite a bit since then. We’re excited to meet her. We’re excited to hold her. We’re just excited.
There’s a tad bit of fear in that word as well. I am finding that parenthood can only work if you’re trusting Jesus with your children (and she’s not even here, yet). It’s easy to worry about things you cannot control: their safety, health, and well-being. I have absolutely no control over any of that at this point. We’ve done all that we can, but ultimately it’s really all in God’s hands.
Ultimately, there’s a lot of expectation in that word. We don’t exactly know what to expect, but we’re living with a hightened sense of expectancy anyway. Both Amanda and I have found ourselves daydreaming about what she’s going to look like, what the birth experience is going to be like, and what it’s going to feel like when we finally hold her. I have a feeling that all the daydreams in the world will pale in comparison to what’s actually coming.
Once while He was conversing with His friends, Jesus had a conversation concerning the events of “the close of the age” (Matthew 24). In the middle of this conversation Jesus drops this line: “Stay awake, for you do not know on what day your Lord is coming … therefore you must be ready, for the Song of Man is coming at an hour you do not expect.” (v. 42 & 44)
As we look forward to our little girl arriving “soon”, I am reminded that Jesus will also be returning “soon”. As the ultimate object of our affection, the most complete joy we have in life, and the greatest source of pleasure we have on earth it’s important to live in the tension of the “soon-ness” of Jesus’ return.
Do you think it’s healthy to live with some anxiety and fear as we experience the “soon-ness” of Jesus’ return?
How much excitement and expectation is the “soon-ness” of Jesus’ return generating in your life?
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